You were not my FIRST LOVE but you were my FIRST for EVERYTHING else and I don’t regret any of it.
I was full of life, full of bliss and full of hopes and dreams when I was with you. We planned our future together. We shared ideas of our future house, future car, future kids and even our future dog. But what seemed to be like a perfect feasible plan was actually meant to be kept as a figment of our imagination.
Reality caught up to us and kicked us on our butts. We were forced to be practical and to take responsibility for our actions. We had to do what had to be done. We had to GROW-UP.
I never really understood at first what happened and why you did it. We never really had a proper closure nor a clear story of what transpired in our relationship. We wanted different things in life. I planned to be in a profession that would take me to greener pastures and you planned to stay at home and depend everything on me. There was only one direction, one plan, and a single thread to hold everything in place.
But maybe, we just drifted apart and took the relationship as more of a routine than a shared intimacy with each other. The distance was too much and everything was falling apart.
You left me.
Then and there, I felt broken. I didn’t know how to collect myself and start over again.
Everything was a blur. I was disoriented and I couldn’t absorb what just happened. You cheated on me and you decided to end the relationship so that you could be with her.
I tried to understand you. I really did. But it never did become rational.
There was YOU, there was ME but there was no longer an US.
After several years and more complicated relationships, here we are today.
I just want you to know that I HAVE FORGIVEN YOU (even if you are not asking for it).
I would like to THANK YOU for loving me and for sharing a part of your life with me.
There were numerous bad days; but what kept us together before were the HAPPY MOMENTS, the laughter and the exchange of smiles.
I learned a lot from our relationship. You’ve taught me things, directly and/or indirectly, which helped me become the person I am today.
As you walk down the aisle on Saturday and stand beside the mother of your unborn child, I wish you endless HAPPINESS, PATIENCE and UNDERSTANDING. I hope that the future you build together would be BRIGHT and FULL OF BLISS.
I know that you truly and unconditionally LOVE HER. I hope that you remain LOYAL and FAITHFUL to her despite failing to do so with ours. I hope that you would be the BEST FATHER and HUSBAND that you can be to your child(ren) and your wife, respectively.
It has been 3 1/2 years already since I moved on from our failed relationship. And now, I can fully LET GO OF YOU and finally CLOSE this chapter in my life.
